Confidence? It has alluded me for years: All my life to one extent or another. And yet so many say they see it in me ever since I was young. I have been like jelly around the ones I most wanted as colleagues. And then I find out that I don’t have to keep proving myself. They actually enjoy, I am not a charity case. And while I have to accept that I will never be only a colleague, I am not just listened to because I can think a bit more then the average female and because I am not a complete fright.